Monday, April 15, 2013

100th Views

As for my 100 views, I guess I'll do this sort of quiz so there'll be a way for people to know me. I do promise I never lie. And while I'm explaining things... what am I doing with my life?

SEVEN DEADLY SINS
WRATH
1. With whom did you last get angry?: ...Hard to say, I hide that emotion. I guess this boy, who got himself into secondary school, the one you go to when you do something so bad you're sent to it as a sort of reformatory, which seems to fail for everyone now, considering there is no homework, less people and are usually your friends, and you can use it to skip first semester exams. I got angry at him for going there, but then I happy, because it's rare for me to be angry.
2. What is your weapon of choice?: I suppose any object will do, unless given the choice of whatever. If given and receive in some way, I would choose a either a katana or twin blades. I'm terrible at guns and I used sticks as swords to fend off monsters from my dreams. Katanas would be used if I don't need speed, and twin blades would be used if I need speed. But my favorite weapon are sickles and scythes, though are useless until complete mastery.
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?: To be perfectly honest, I feel apathetic, but I am a pacifist, so I will abstain, that is until I can't use defensive tactics. If push comes to a shove, nothing will happen, but if it comes to spilling blood on pavement, it's obvious we will defend ourselves right? I will retaliate on any gender, whether intersexual, female, or male.
4. How about of the same sex?: Look above, basically.
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?: That is a hard question. I can't tell because I have trouble finding people's emotions. The obvious like a red dot in a sheet of white I can tell, but I don't jump to conclusions, so I can't really recall.
6. What is your pet peeve?: Pretty much bigotry and deceit. That was easy.
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?: I believe people deserve chances after periods of time. I believe people can change, because I changed, people around me changed, and my old friends changed. I suppose I do hold grudges, but I try to forget about them or bring a compromise. The mentioned boy in the first question, I offered a doughnut after the end of a week if he didn't get in trouble with the principal or get detention, since I used to get free doughnuts.
SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time?: Hmm... There's nothing I do daily I don't do.
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?: By latest they mean waking up late, right? I suppose... 10:20 A.M.. Went to bed at 6:30 A.M. that day.
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: I keep thinking about texting someone I like... I guess I'm just afraid, lazy.
4. What is the last lame excuse you made?: "I'll do it later... (after I forget about it)"
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones)?: Neigh, meaning nope.
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in?: Actually this morning in Physical Education. I have to get exercise, and we played football. The game you play with an ovoid-shaped ball with sharp edges with your hands.
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?: Zero, I have to wake up early to wake the rest of the family.
GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?: This cheap gallon of tea. Don't know the price, but it's affordable, even if you are paid minimum wage. It's the best ever.
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat?: Red and bleeding... I'm kidding, I'm a lacto-ovo vegetarian, but if I had to choose I have to choose with which ever is nutritious, because I have to watch what I eat.
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?: This is actually pretty funny. I didn't know the eggnog my aunt uses have alcohol, and she used it to make this gelatin, my favorite kind, when I was little. Never got drunk or felt a stomachache or anything, then again I don't know my limit, so I guess... at least a cup to a pint, or maybe even a quart, who knows. (at least 237 to 473 milliliters. A quart is about 946 milliliters.)
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?: Nope.
5. Do you have an issue with your weight?: I'm not really worried.
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?: Some sweet tastes I prefer over spicy tastes, and vice versa so I guess this is vague.
7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, LUNCH?: Nope... What kind of question is this.
LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?: Uh... let me remember. I guess four to seven if you don't include my times skipping through Omegle. I think at least half was from public showers or public locker rooms.
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)?: Uh... I think three.
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?: Nope. I do scan people at the start of a conversation from habit, but I always stare at their eyes.
4. Have you done it?: Breathe? Loads of time. Even right now I'm doing it. I'm kidding, I do know what they mean by 'it' is and it's sex. To be totally honest... *You have lost connection*
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?: I can't choose... The eyes or the navel. The eyes for their trademarks, but the navel because... I think I'm attracted to it like people have foot fetishism. Naval fetishism? 
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?: Nope. There's no prostitutes where I live, at least the part where I live.
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?: Nope. I suppose I do need to get STD checks only to check myself when I do get older, but that would just be regularly and voluntarily, not in some need because of a broken condom or something. 
GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own?: Zero, zilch, none, and I'll probably get only debit cards when I do ever get cards.
2. What's your guilty pleasure store?: Uh... Gamestop I guess, or any garage sell with cheap Pokemon stuff... I love them...
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?: Save it for college for my brothers, pay off debts to any cars I own and my mortgage or rent when I have my own place to live. Also use it for emergency, like a car crash or whatever. Maybe help out friends, but mainly my brothers, whenever they're in desperate need of money. 
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous?: Rich, so I can constantly help the poor and pay off my family debts. 
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?: Nope.
6. Have you ever stolen anything?: I stole the lives of many sperm cells when my twin brother and I went inside the same egg... Anyway, yes, who doesn't when they're young and foolish?
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?: ... Maybe a few. I use WAVs, and for that I guess almost a hundred.
PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of?: I guess having the chance of life. The chance of having a conscience when many others don't, even if I was born weaker than my brother and deform. Even when I have to go through all this pain of surgery when I'm allergic to morphine. Even with screwed up taste buds.
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?: After understanding the world's concept I began to get high grades, and maintained an all A grade on my report card for four or maybe five years.
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?: Completing a 3D puzzle without instructions... And pay off the debts.
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?: Nope, but what does seem to happen a lot is people in first place saying that I secretly care about it and then goes on bragging... Why do people do that?
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?: Er... I don't think so.
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?: Yes, on spelling tests when I was in first grade... One word was nine, and I looked up to the number line above... teacher forgot to take it down. Ha.
7. What did you do today that you're proud of?: I don't know... Live?
ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own?: My richest friend's allowance of hundred dollars almost daily... His guardians are well-trained doctors and they have three or four houses. 
2. Who would you want to go on Trading Spaces with?: Wasn't that a TV show? Either way, I wouldn't trade lives, that is when I got something I really shouldn't and  someone else deserve it more than me. Like the free doughnuts.
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?: Myself. Without my mind, I wouldn't be here where I am now.
4. Have you ever been cheated on?: Actually yes. This ex of mine was bi-curious and he decided to get a girlfriend without telling me, and he even had the audacity to tell me he was having trouble handling with her after an argument. Everything's alright though. I even helped him get another girlfriend a while after they broke up.
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?: When I was little I wished to have a working and perfect left ear. And I guess some childish stuff like being able to dislocate my jaw and bring it back, but hey, I'm able to twist one foot 180 degrees due to my constant twisted ankles injuries.
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?: I don't know. Picture perfect memory.
7. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin?: I guess... I don't know either.

SEVEN HEAVENLY VIRTUES
FAITH
1. What religion do you follow?: I suppose atheism with my own set of morals.
2. What religion were you raised as?: Catholic.
3. Do you believe that forgiveness is a religious property, or a human property?: Human.
4. Do you have your own commandments?: I guess so.
5. What was the last promise you broke?: I guess killing something... I'm killing lots of bacteria inside of my body.
6. Have you ever said the words to a prayer and not meant it?: I've only prayed a few times as a child, and whenever I did I actually meant it.
7. Do you believe that anyone could be perfect?: It is a matter of perspective, so nobody will ever really be perfect... except for edchinas.
HOPE
1. Did you get everything you wanted over the last holiday season?: I guess not, since I didn't care what I got.
2. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for?: To be able to have no issue with money.
3. Do you let yourself get your hopes up for something even if you know that there is a large chance of failure?: Considering all the times I gambled at Chucky Cheese, nope.
4. Freedom or fate? Freedom, because with it, you're bound not become what you not want to be, most of the time if logical in the situation.
5. Have you ever bought a lottery ticket?: Nope.
6. Do you gamble?: This is vague. With this question, I gamble to live everyday.
7. Have you ever had something called off on account of bad weather, but then gone ahead and done it anyway?: Nope.
CHARITY
1. What causes do you support?: Animal, children, equality, needy, stuff of the sort I guess.
2. What causes have you given money or time to?: The only thing I can give money to at the moment is the hospital donations for the hospital nearby.
3. Have you ever worked in a soup kitchen or done another kind of outreach for the homeless?: I did this toiletry drive. Also donated canned goods.
4. Would you ever consider joining the Peace Corps, Amnesty International, or another travel?: Nope, sadly.
5. Do you give money to the homeless on the street?: Never have actually, because I never had any money when I met one, and there aren't any where I live.
6. Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like rent or food?: Nope. Everyone I know is rich enough to fend for themselves and a few others, or are pretty good where they are.
7. What's the greatest extent you've gone to help a friend in need?: Actually... This is sort of embarrassing, but one of my friend got blue balls, and so I took the time to find a room for him and leaved him to it... If you don't count that, help someone get a girlfriend.
FORTITUDE
1. What are you most afraid of?: Confusion. That's pretty much it.
2. What did you do today that was really brave?: Er... Nothing I guess.
3. Who is your favorite superhero, and why?: I have none.
4. Would you put your life in danger to rescue someone?: Yes. Heart transplant, lung transplant, take a bullet, a knife, even drown. But then again, I only will if I certainly know they will live after I die.
5. If you were to face the Wizard, would you want more courage, more brains, or more heart?: What type of question is this? Anyway, knowledge is power.
6. Have you ever gotten stage fright? If so, when?: Yep, whenever I have to perform or give an oral presentation.
7. Do you consider yourself to be a leader or a follower?: More of a follower, since I accommodate so much.
JUSTICE
1. Have you ever been summoned for jury duty?: Nope.
2. If they reinstituted the draft (for both genders), would you go, or would find some way out of it?: I'd find some way out of it, because I know I'm no good with guns or physical strength.
3. Do you support capital punishment (the death penalty)?: Never will I ever. Funny, this reminds me when my homeroom was having one of those character education and stuff. My brother and I was put with a group of people and we were asked, "A man killed somebody. What do think his punishment should be?" Our group was biasing over everything, not discussing anything, and so when or teachers asked, "The death penalty!" and my brother and I said, "Objection!"
4. Which should be guaranteed legal?: Okay, don't give me any choices. I guess equality is the main subject.
5. Do you believe that Dubya is rightfully President of the USA?: ...Is that George W. Bush? This must be old, the quiz. Anyway, I don't know much about him to actually say anything, but I do disagree with most of the decisions he had proposed.
6. What was your favorite media circus trial?: Wait, what...?
7. Have you ever written a letter to a politician?: Nope. Don't know any addresses anyway.
TEMPERANCE 
1. What do you have the hardest time moderating yourself on?: My nervous behavior.
2. Do you collect anything?: Pokemon... I rest my case.
3. Are you addicted to anything?: Magic brownies... I'm kidding. But I am addicted to drinking tea, pepsi, coke...
4. Have you ever put anything on layaway or used an installment plan?: Nope.
5. What's your preferred method of paying for things?: On time and with cash, no checks or IOUs.
6. Tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do?: Lie to people without knowing I had what I didn't know as schizophrenia. People actually believed me and now I feel like an idiot.
7. Do you feel that you obsess over things?: Pokemon, probably.
PRUDENCE
1. Who is the wisest person you know?: My other self when I was little. Not my twin brother, the one I made up when my schizophrenia was at its peak. His views were so simple and straightforward...
2. Have you ever participated in a vigil?: Nope.
3. Do you take advice when it's given?: Sometimes. If it's logical and clear, yes.
4. What area are you wisest in?: Pokemon... and sex education... don't forget math... Embarrassing.
5. Do you drive defensively?: I don't drive yet, actually.
6. What did you learn today?: The Seven Heavenly Virtues quiz wasn't as fun as I expected, and that I had survived today. 
7. And of course, what is your favorite heavenly virtue?: How should I know...

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Not long ago..., Writing Contest, and Progress [Update]

Really now... Really?
I haven't posted something in maybe 53 days...

I feel like teas is good drink right now...

Most of it was at the birthday party of my cousins' about an hour and a half south from my city, the even more southern part of North America, where the area is filled with "Go to Church or Go to Hell" and "† Jesus Saves " signs and children who have only read the Holy Bibles Genesis and Exodus (Just the main parts too) or who haven't read any and just follows what their parents say... Sorry if I insulted someone, I don't really mean it, I just don't like it when people don't look at the full scope of something they believe, or just do stuff out of fear. Again, sorry if I insulted someone.
On to what I was saying... My cousin, the main one, is about ten (or eleven... I don't know anymore) and so is his other friends, some maybe twelve, some maybe nine, albeit it was actually fun to be away from technology and relive childhood the way I wanted to turn out, since none of the children actually know me as the others do back at my city, the lonely person who just sat and watched the others play because he didn't like fairy princesses or sports. They encouraged me to play with them, even though they found out I didn't believe in any gods, I hate physical sports, or that I have an unstable physical body. (My cousin and little brother has a big mouth, and not to mention I kept cracking a bone when I walked up a hill and twisted my ankle every time I walked down hill.)
They didn't care about it, even though they hate it, they don't use it as an excuse to hate me.
Anyway, I found something. fear isn't one of those emotions I've been able to control since childhood like how I was with anger, it's one of those emotions where you just don't know anymore.
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I've been busying myself with the annual state writing contest for students. It's completed, posted, and the results shall be here in the middle of May, which annoyed me how time moves so quickly now but slow when you think about it. It went through five drafts and today a classmate found two measly mistakes that I flipped over and smashed my skull against the desks... I forgot to include a word, like: "Are you having good day?" instead, "Are you having a good day?" It's too late to change it now...
Anyway, most people mistaken my thoughts of reason for entering this contest. Some think I just want the money. I just want the thought of having gotten to at least third place.
My story is 38 pages, while many others in my class (that was forced to enter) wrote a one-page poem. I haven't seen any of their entries, but most just stirred something in their heads just because they didn't want anything to jeopardize their grade. I would love to read them, but something is telling me not to, while something is also telling me to let people read mine. I don't know.
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Anyway, the story I entered is called Beelzebub, and pretty much all I can say.

As for the short story collection I had in mind, I'm still thinking of going with it, but I realized I'm no good in horror, just creating dark tales. And I thought about my memoirs, and decided against writing up an autobiography, Child Rage Grows Thickly Kind and Creatures of My Childhood. I've decided to just use those times and make a story based on it, that way, I can choose my own ending and start. And I also have a confession... Beelzebub was based from what was originally Creatures of My Childhood. Only the actual monsters introduced in Beelzebub is true at least in my account of a slight demented and schizophrenic childhood, except for one monster I changed from a Gorgosaurus to a reptilian man. The whole storyline is, however, flop, and by flop, fake.
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Onto the main progress of the collection, I've also decided to change poems into short stories.
I've also spent my time too much on Beelzebub, so I got nothing else actually into much progress... 
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In the end I would like to say this... The yearly gigantic storm is here, and everybody is flipping tables when they haven't noticed it's about time for the storm to have happened. Well, at least then the garbage can from the neighborhood behind me hasn't flown by the wind uphill, down a block, and flooded downhill in front of the building I live in like last year...